LIFE

i have come to the realization that life is messy. everywhere you turn there is just a puddle or a big vat of GOO waiting to get you.



for example .... my LOVE LIFE

things would be much simpler if people only knew what they wanted.

"do i want this girl, or this girl? why not have both? if i get caught i wont get in trouble right?"



OF COURSE YOU WILL ... BCUZ YOU ARENT SLICK



oy ....and then theres the case of me and the triangle ... i swear ... life is just holding onto a big stick watching me trip and fall on my face.



why is it that when you least expect it to happen you start to like someone that is SOOOOOO OFF LIMITS???

idk if its life ...or the ever present girl named Karma in my life. she's there when i need her, and then she's also there to make fun of my mistakes.



however, through all of this mess that i have learned to call my life over the past 3-4 months ... ive learned that FRIENDS&FAMILY can get you through anything if they love you enough.

thank god, life, karma, the universe - whatever you want to call it - that i have an abundance of those



if i didnt i think i would have been committed a very very very long time ago.

so again this was just me playing catch-up with my life. ugh ... lets just agree on something right here and right now everybody ....
life is messy. but if you have great friends and family, you will be able to get through anything that it throws at you.

Live It.Love It.Hate It ... Just Enjoy It. ♥

Who's with Me?!

So as I enter the world of adulthood in 2 days - yes people 2 days - I find myself thinking more and more about childhood.

How I miss the old cartoons. You know what I mean, Rugrats, All That, Double Dare 2000, and even Legends of the Hidden Temple. Oh the good old days when cartoons had substance. Nowadays cartoons are just ... blech! I mean look at All Grown up (that lasted what 1.5 seasons). There's only so mucha person can take when it comes cartoons.

How I miss simple things like nap time. Why do schools have to give you nap time when you don't really want it? What I would do for a regular nap time. Can you imagine that? Everyday at school there would be 15-30 minutes so that you can sleep. Oh baby!

But now that I think about the good old days, I start to think about the good things that 'being older' has given me - rated R movies, the chance to get away from home for 4 years, lotto tickets ...
It may all see slightly insignifigant but its all a part of growing up. As long as I keep that in mind I guess I'll be fine without my nap time.

Live It.Love It.Hate It ... Just Enjoy It. ♥

i dont wanna think about it

summer is ending and school is coming up ... life seems so weird at this moment.

there are so many things going on right now that I cant think straight. But then again ... who really wants to think straight nowadays... I wanna go back to school but then i don't want my last high school summer vacation to end. I guess I have this fear of being rejected, but then again who doesn't =)

i wonder what will happen when i get back there and all of the pressures start. I feel like since i haven't written in a while, I should at least get the thoughts out. BTW...

NEWSFLASH
I think my bestie has finally been set free!!! It took a little ... persuasion, but he's free. Actually the guy thinks that he will come crawling back ... not in this lifetime, the next one, of the 50 after that!!

I know that some people say that they don't care what others think about them, while others only lie about that feeling. I actually don't care what other people think about me, but what happens to the people that do care what people think? I mean, do they just go back to their rooms, sit in a corner, and cry all night? What does it feel like to be that type of person? To rely on the opinions and thoughts of others to validate your worth? It may seem like this has no point in this blog, but it actually does. The boy that wouldn't leave my bestie alone is the type of person that needs others to make them feel good. If anybody can answer my question, go for it.

Live it.Love it.Hate it ... Just Enjoy it ♥

La Manera de Vida

Well...I'm here again. It's about 2:45 in the morning and I'm not exactly sure what I'm doing. I'm supposed to be finish up a paper, but instead ... here I am. Life can be pretty interesting when you think about it. I mean, I know that I am one to procrastinate and I shouldn't. But when I try and fix that ... it doesn't really work that well. So here I am, watching the hands move around the clock faster than this paper is getting done. And I just can't help but wonder: is this the way it will always be? Will I know when something is going to happen and just not be able to do anything about it?

I know, I know ... these are just the ramblings of an extremely crazy girl that is tired out of her mind. You wold be right...but I'm not tired right now. (and when I was thinking about my life a few minutes ago it just seemed like that's what happens to me)

Now ... I don't know what to do ... i think I'm going to go back to trying to write my paper ... we'll see how well that really works out for me. *crosses fingers* Till next time...

live it. love it. hate it...just enjoy it ♥

Brave Little Toaster

Hellooo out there!

This seems to be a big new world for me. I was never realy the big fish in the little pond, but now I am a really tiny fish in the HUGE ocean. Lets cross our fingers and hope that I dont get lost (or eaten). I promised bestie that I would start to blog, and blog I shall. Everyday ... nahhh, but when I get around to it ... YUPP!

welp. I have somewhat of a life to get back to. So til next time.


live it. love it. hate it. just ...enjoy it! ♥